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(Bella) "I know I deserve better, and zack is better than you.." (***d) "***... you know I've given you all of me right. .. and if you leave I'm so ***ked and so alone...." Me two minutes ago alone.... siting on our room on the bed, and look to my side as I say aloud "hey can we talk..... In a calm but yet just broken, terrified, and sadness but yet terror of the means to an end coming fast... I want sweet calm sensitive and caring and loving Bella the Bella that had that beautiful smile on her face I know I can still do that dude I mean we had far greater good memories and only a few bad ones that we can actually fix and make things right. It should have never had to turn out like this for anyone.... and any **** reason especially the one I have, and you know what I know and you know that I would never leave your side and i thought that we could real give it a chance I snd you do and together our own combination of problems together, I think we made a ****ing at the pat****g things is our communication and lack of it from both of us but just shutting me out completely and saying the horrible stuff and saying that **** man we mynall wasn't good enough and bust my**** everyday and in the sun coming home everyday looking and feeling wrecked and well more wrecked now because I lost every all will to fight even get up anymore it was work all night tonight because I would have be fired if I didn't because I just laid the in since all day and crying and having nothing it's hatred to leave for work sad and empty and that's ***ked, now imagine after a day in***** every single day.. you come home and now there is nothing and you miss it so bad it hurts so I lay and I cry I get ***ody not kiddos and hugs when I get hom, and hugs and kisses from you God dang I miss just your presence... let us meet please I'll ever get cleaned up I means it's breakfast time I'm ***gry and I'm sure you and or you and the girls come have breakfast "im buying" so let's just **** and eat chat alil and feel the presence you try so hard to block it out that you leave due ti the fear l would... I know it scared me so bad when you told me about you, I was like ***k I couldn't even tell becaue I don't know anything about that dhit bit the deat toll and ***k that. Lost to many. So yea scared that I couldn't tell and what if I wouldn't have but been to late when you needed help. Like ***k I had to revive one pesome in my life and he never came back to my house after that ever a***n, those that you found in that Grey bag in the blue case yea garbage old just no and I never through them away because I didn't want anyone driving it tell I could make sure that **** didn't happen.